Fearful Fourth

Yesterday I realized for the first time that I am graduating from college in 3 months! This extra year at Lee has been nice in a way because it has delayed "real-life' for awhile...Yesterday I realized that I am afraid to graduate, I don't know what I am going to do with my life after I finish school, I don't know how I am going to pay my school loans off, I need to get a good job but I don't feel that I am prepared to do anything! 

My heart wants to do so many things, but I don't know how to make them happen. I want to do missions in Ireland, get my masters, open a counseling center and so much more...I know that God has this all in his hands, but I still feel so stranded. I am praying that God will continue to direct me, he has been doing a great job the past 22 years so I'm gonna let him continue, he knows much better then I do.

Food for today's thought: 

"The future lies before you like a field of driven snow; be careful how you tread it, for every step will show." -Author Unknown

Truly the Third.

Wellllll I had a long night last night full of questions. Its hard to explain it all here but I think that through some good advice and some contemplation, I know that I have made good decisions and I am proud of that. I know that I sound cryptic but I just want to get this off my chest without having to write about it all...

Anyway... today I will continue to pack and clean and finish my last exam-just a one page essay and then I'm done with this semester's classes, however next week I start summer school- Spanish 8-2 everyday for a month no bueno. 

So, I am off to finish my exam and packing...

Food for today's thought:

"I bought a self-learning record to learn Spanish. I turned it on and went to sleep; the record got stuck. The next day I could only stutter in Spanish." -Unknown

Siked Second :)

*Picture's of my room in the transition of moving...*

Well, today is my second posting here on my pretty green and pink space on the web :) I have had a pretty random day with few highlights...I am preparing to move out of my apartment this Thursday so I am in the process of throwing out stuff, deciding what I want to keep etc... I am very excited about moving in with my friend Hannah, she has a lovely 3 story house here in Cleveland that she owns herself, so I don't have to worry about grumpy old landlords which is a plus. I will have my own room, share a bathroom with 2 other girls, have utilities, internet, cable and rent all for the VERY low price of $160 a month, until July when I will be switching into a larger room (long story there) where I will pay $260, which is just about what I am used to paying now... So, those are the current plans, I am hoping that the move is smooth and not too stressful, I have moved 11 times since my Freshman year at Lee, this will be my 12th! I am an expert now haha! 

Food for today's thought:

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." 

-Gilda Radner

~Jill

Fresh First.

Earnest Hemingway said "All my life I've looked at words as though I were seeing them for the first time" and I agree with him. When I look at words or sentences, even though they are so familiar, they still hold some sort of fascination with me. Words have so much power; they can comfort, amuse, quiet, and rouse... its with these thoughts that I will start this blog, knowing that my words have some sort of place in this world...Come read at your own risk ;)